my life
i'm currently working 4 days a week.
i can say i'm quite free, i got totally nothing to do on the days that i'm not working.
i walk my dog, gym, play sports and meet up with friends.
do i sound like i have retire?
i don't like being so free actually.
cos theres something bothering me now and it will make me think about it more.
i am a very eccentric person, i don't even understand myself sometimes.
i'm also very rational most of the time but at times when i flare up i will do it without thinking and at the end of the day i always regret.

From young, i always get what i wanted. everything or anything when i say i want it i will always get it easy and don't need to work for it or make any effort.
that is why i didn't make any effort to do things.
if i go army, i got my dad behide to cover me.
if i fail to go sch again and again, i dun have to worry theres no sch to study later on.
i am too dependent on him.

now, there is a bit of difference.
i still can get whatever i want. but not in a relationship.
i don't think anyone can understand and stand my weird character.


i want to learn to be independent now. that is why i have choose to work.
i wanna prove to them i can do it on my own.
but i know that i can't that hardship.
it's gonna be tough but i won't give up.

to the special someone who gone mia- i hope u understand me.
whatever you do where ever you are i hope you are happy.
it somehow affects my mood when you're not. i don't knw.

i'm working on sth which i can't see and maybe, does not exist.

can i hold you forever? baby.

hi everyone! i'm back! =D
i have been working full shift for 2 days straight and i died off the 3rd day due to muscle cramps and the madness in mng sales. So i gave up, and return to coaching.
other than that, i've been chiong batminton these few weeks cos i'm really trying to slim down,
but i'm like gain weight or no difference! argh!
cos when i work out more=eat more.
damn! i can't lose weight forever laaaa.
unless i'm forced to stay at Si Chuan for a month.

i don't know i'm i happy or sad.
telling myself it's ok, nevermind everyday
try to act blind and deaf and pretend that i don't know,
act that i don't bother.
but deep down, i know what i want is you.

i think i'm sad.

so what?

life goes on...........

finally, i so called stop slacking my life away already.
i've been slacking and doing nothing for the past 7mths after i've withdrawn from lasalle.
i've got to adapt to career life,
face many different kind of challenges, like kids which is quite tough for me.
and parents relation.
i am quite stress though but i am quite prepared to overcome it.


Happy pills.where are you?
i'm thinking of you every moment.

Kbox
with sam,jessica and burg
we woke up feeling very hungry with slight hangovers
so we meet up for very late lunch/very early dinner at Thomson plaza.
burg and me ate buddy meal.
ah long ate chicky meal.
after lunch, we don't know where to go and very randomly we decided to go AMK hub sing K.
i don't know all the singer's name and title.
i told them i wanna sing the duet, the guy with the moustache i show them with that 2 fingers action above my upper lip. Supprisingly! Sam knows who i'm talking about.ROFLMAO
the most halirous part was when sam and me sing 'xuan ze' tgt. -the video with jessica.
we sing till 10 plus then burg and i went to gombak for supper at alif with lionel and fiona.
recently, i got craving for yeggg onioonn... lol.
after supper we went to play batminton in the middle of the night, in the dark.
i told burg, if we continue training like this we will be pro when we play in the bright day light.
we train when everyone is asleep, in the dark.
it's so underground..
it's sooo.... isamola!

this is ah long again.
she make herself look like zaizai so ppl won't recognise her.LMAO!

fiona's Reef cards. i love this butt the most=D

Obar to Herstory
with rachelle,eleanor,eunice,burg,gena,sam,jessica and me
we went to obar to drink.
we drank only on shots- tequilla and sex on the beach.
Gena was damn funny when shes drunk!
omg make burg and i can't stop laughing.
we were laughing non-stop from obar to zouk.
we cabbed down to zouk at 12 plus.
burg, gena and i was attacking and retreating. it was god damn funny!
den burg saw my target and we attacked halfway i tell her to retreat then we laugh until we fall.
i think burg was too high on sth.
and i was too high on the 'clorets mint'. LOL
'thank god i damaged to control myself if not i'll be in trouble that night'

got 1 period of time sam,gena and me were holding hands squeezing thru around the dance floor a few times.
the floor was so packed and i think bump into a few ppl.
and 1 fucking ugly butch was so rude.
tell us off in a 'buay song' tone. cb! i feel like giving her cb face. but i see her face already so ugly dun wan make it worse. =D
but luckily i was only concentrating on combing the dance floor.
i wanna meet her for awhile but too bad she was pissed with me:(
pissed about another thing was about the conjoined twins
wow i saw a conjoined twins on the dance floor.
wad are you afraid of?
that i steal her away from the floor?
anw, you won? happy? good job....!!!

cheers! for our first shot!

WHAHAHHA!!!! OWNED!

look at the one beside me.
do you think shes very familiar?
yes, she's the ah long who loves to surf porn!aha!;)

do you want some sex on the beach??

meet them at vivo for shopping and can't find anything i like.
rachelle and fiona went in forever 21 and they stayed for quite long.
sam burg and me walk around with our shades.hah!
after shopping, we took a bus down to holland v, cold rock and burg treat us ice-cream.=D
which is the day when lionel and i failed on our diet plan.
we started yesterday and can't succumb the huge temptation of the yummy cold rock ice-cream the second day. sucker!
Maybe we shan't be too hard on ourselves. it's ok to give in to little temptation once in a while and i will work harder the next round ;)
After ice cream, we went to starbucks to chill. ya they were chilling but i don't think i'm really chilling out with a big sized body with broad shoulders squeezing and squashing me in my couch.aha!

caught the 3 with shades

my cookiesandcream-caramelmudcakewaffle!'slurp!'

ice-cream attack=P

the Squashed!

Sizzllingg....

my poor endurance..

i heart the vintage look

Bye~!

Yeah! finally we get to start our slimming plan today after so many days of postponing.
i met lionel at 7 we jog at the gombak stadium for 20mins.
i really can't stand it but im glad i made it there.
i hate jogging.. but well, for the sake of my arms and tummy..
after tt we go eat teochew porridge
on my way there i saw alif and i'm so tempted to eat 2 cheeze prata...
for the sake of tt
i control my legs and walk the other way .. towards the teochew porr.
and we ordered 6 dishes of healthy food. =D
then sam and jessica came and join us
they end up eating teochew porr too.. hahaha...
after eating we went to the cooling park to chill again.

teochew porr

lionel smoke?

sex position no. 1

sex position no. 2

I know they say if you love somebody
You should set them free
But it sure is hard to do
It sure is hard to do
I know they say if it don’t come back again
Then it’s meant to be
Those words don’t pull me through
Cause I’m still in love with you
I spend each day here waiting for a miracle
It’s just you and me going through the mill
Climbing up a hill
Two lovers in love can’t make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
I always make you cry
Come on baby it’s over
Let’s face it
All that’s happening here is a long goodbye
Sometimes I ask my heart
Did we really give our love a chance?
But I know without a doubt
We turned it inside out
And if we walked away would it make more sense
But it tears me up inside
Just to think we still could try
How long must we keep running on a carousel?
Going round and round and never getting anywhere
On a wing and prayer
A long goodbye

all of us were supposed to go SPCA, but we didn't make it cos we chill till very late the previous night. i woke up the lastest then i went down to hereen and find them.
then Sam got sudden urge to get a tattoo so she just get it. chill again at spinelli try to draw mocca's eye for burger's tattoo.
after that we went long john to eat, temptation again! but i can't resist. so i ordered an upsized meal and hershey's pie. like i know theres no difference we just share just to make me feel better that i'm not eating that much.hah!
dinner's done and we got no idea where to chill.
we vote where to go.
majority of us say chill at a pub
we cabbed down to princep place drink beer and ktv until close, we walk down to nafa fong seng eat nasi lemak and we saw dahlia our internal drawing lecturer.
eunice's drunk friend was hilarious...

lionel.rachelle.me

burg.rach.me

the disappointment of a hope leaves a scar

haha supposed to meet lionel for jogging this evening,
but my mom called, she told me they are having dinner outside and ask if i wanna join.
then i i say ok.. so jogging is cancelled.
btw, this is the 2nd time we postponed our jogging session. hah!
but in the end! when i was changing getting rdy to go...i was also talking on the phone, you know i can't multi-task, so i'm like walking in circles.. then i heard the door open.. they are going to leave..! and they just left without me! haha.. nvm.. it's not the first time!
so i just meet up a friend for dinner sent her home, then meet burg chatted with her about mocca her dog who have just passed away a few days ago.
Then fiona call already.. haha.. we get on the bike and go gombak meet lionel and fiona.
we meet at Alif eat prata.
chill there and chatted for awhile
fiona asked a lot of damn ramdom question that we really cannot stand it.
i shall not elaborate on her questions. haha.
after supper, we went back to the cooling place and play tarot cards the whole night.

Isamola
Isa, mo, la?

IsaMOLAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i'm gonna ride away burger's bike

toilet trips to patrol kiosk(riding away her bike-failed)

Lionel giving tarot cards reading for Fiona

to the power of infinity
thanks for your effort

Monday

anzeal bday at east coast park
i miss lionel's chicken wing. it's so damn nice!
we played some games and drink vodka.
rachelle first to KO. then i help her....
awhile later....
i turn 1 side vomit like a merlion.
aha... then gary's turn.

it's a KO/punk'ed night out!

it really look like siew mai!

Tuesday
they next day i woke up with no hang over but very tired.
i woke up at 8am cos i got stomachache, must be the medium cooked stingray tt i ate yesterday or mixed with the alcohol and sambal chilli.
lionel, fiona and me decided to meet up for dinner at alfi.
we ate very nice mee soto.... :D
then they keep bombard me with my studies and talk about our slimming plan.
lionel and me enjoy doing that 'handshake' to fiona
now she is at the second stage.. yeahh!
hahhhaa...
after dinner, we accompany lionel go take his tarot cards at home.
then walk to fiona house bring her muffin out.
i walked muffin all the way to the park. walking muffin is a workout.
then lionel take out his tarot cards and play with me.
i hate negative cards! aiyerrrr!!!

11 plus, burger end work she came here with cold rock ice cream!
thanks burg! and lionel play dry ice
burg hungry then we walk to teochew porridge there eat.
and we lepak there for a couple of hours chatting and pulling ticks out of muffin.
pooorrrr muffin..............
i chill until 4am then burg send me home. i sit her new Fino back.. i kinda like tt bike. very cool and unique. but, slow..
we went cheese prata shop eat again then she came my hse take jacket.
9 am wake fiona up and i slpt at 10am this morning!
anw, i didnt stay up on purpose just to wake fiona up ok, i got more impt things to do.hah!



CHILLOS!
-:it's a mole laaaa