What I gotta do to make you mine?

What should I be giving myself to find?

Any clue that you might've left behind

Baby please give me a sign

I can never walk away like this

Giving up on you

 

And it's true

It's the only one thing that I'm sure

Only one thing that is so pure

Pure enough my heart can cure

There's so much I can endure

Baby can you please come back to me

To my arms, please

 

Finding ways to get you back

Everyday I'm asking to myself

What's the reason that you turned your back to me?

How am I supposed to live?

Searchin' places you might be

Anywhere I'll go if I can meet

You and tell you how I need you here with me

I can't live without your love

 

Why can't I just give up and let go?

When it's over and I know

Everywhere I look for high and low

Couldn't find you and it shows that you don't want me to come to you

Come to you again

 

So I tried

Tried to live my life without you here

But what I run into is more fear

Can you hear my words, they're so sincere

That I really need you near

Baby why can't you see this is real?

Please come back, baby

 

Finding ways to get you back

Everyday I'm asking to myself

What's the reason that you turned your back to me?

How am I supposed to live?

Searchin' places you might be

Anywhere I'll go if I can meet

You and tell you how I need you here with me

I can't live without your love

 

It's too late to say these words of redemption

I should've known better

If I can turn back the clock, I'll do anything and everything

All I need is just one more chance, let me prove my love to you

Let me show you, let me tell you how much I miss you

You're all that I need girl

 

Finding ways to get you back

Everyday I'm asking to myself

What's the reason that you turned your back to me?

How am I supposed to live?

Searchin' places you might be

Anywhere I'll go if I can meet

You and tell you how I need you here with me

I can't live without your love 

you're my sweet thang

i don't care what you do to me

you're mine oh mine (:

mahjong at gary's place.

i was home the whole afternoon slacking and playing CS.

then sam call to play mj i was like thank god u save my day.. 

cos i really wanna go out today. 

so i went to meet the picnic guys , rachelle and sam at far east

then rach sam and i went to gary's place play mj

ordered mac at 5am.

the mcgriddles and 1 stick makes us HAPPY=D

continue to play till 7am den we cab home.

hey not much photo to view ah. cos im very stress on my tiles at that point of time. LOL!

i won 12 bucks

-30 for cab fare home

-7 for mcgriddles

-11.80 for 1 packet of cigg

lose money =(

i miss you

i went to play on sat. 

sry guys i couldn't stay 

hope i didn't scare u all when i leave so abruptly:D

cos i am sick..

love sick.. hur hur. =p

lets do it again when there is no host dj k! yea...

rachel and me(:

TRANCE makes me SNOOZE.........

ryan and me..

benz was denying !! i heard u say flower pot =P

the end.

multiple orgasm.

Chalet Day 2

The second day is way better than the first.

i can sleep as long as i want. the last to wake up. 

den we slack in the chalet until 4pm.

then all of us leave to take car for rounding.

i then go vivo to meet nicole and her frens for movie. 

cos i'm not good in persuading moms to borrow car.

jason is good so he do the job. =D

we watched harold and kumar.

it was hilarious and i think, if i'm staying with my best fren,

it will be exactly like that.

harold will be shu hui and kumar will be me. 

haha!

after movie we go shop awhile and we go eat pastamania. both of us not really hungry so we bought 1 set and sure. after eating then i realised i have not enough. lol.

when i'm eating jason keep calling and give me that irritating voice. 

so i got to leave and meet them. 

slack awhile at sky park and we walk back to the carpark.

the most funniest part is when we lock jason up in the shopping centre and all run into the car and lock the door! den i ask farah to drive away from him. 

we nearly had heart attack.

cos we run too fast and laugh too much.

it's owning!!!!!!

we owned........!

den after awhile my guilty conscious, i ask farah stop the car and let him in. we got nowhere to go and stuck in the car for awhile deciding the destination. 

farid wanted to go wild hog at tanjong pagar, and we decided to go play. 

the dance floor was empty all the way. i got so bored that i keep getting drinks and smoke alone. in the mid i ask them to go wild hog. and jason saw ppl doing blow job there. 

after that we went back to play at 1 plus. the dance floor was alredy packed. 

and i was lucky to see my friends there. cos i really don't want to dance with him. 

over my body and soul.

we went back at 3 and don't feel like sleeping. 

we go red house, OCH, and a few more creepy places.

i was damn scared. we close the window and locked the door like going to jurasic park.. lol!

on high beam and stare and the window u will feel the chill.... 

den we got back the chalet at 6am we chat on some interesting topic then i fell aslp.

woke up at 9am so damn tiredd... and i have to cab home... 

Don’t stress, don’t stress, don’t stress 
Cause we gone & we gone & we gone 
No stress, no stress, no stress 
Girl you deserve nothing but the best .....

Chalet day 1

i reached there at 10 plus. i straight away go bbq food to eat.

only had hotdogs and crabmeat.

play poker, and camwhore. cos the next time will prolly be 1 yr later.

after they leave, i realised sgenlaz is not around. so i go and find her. 

and i knew she'll be at the pool emoing. then i join her and both of use emo tgt. haha!

not emo enough, i go back chalet take vodka and mixer and crackers and drink at the pool side. 

i told her i feel very energetic i wanna do push up! hahaha!

den jason and hariz came and i think i influenced them and they also became energetic.

we started arm wrestling..

i lose to hariz. damn it....

i'll train harder.. next time try it again. not satisfied.. haha....

me,st and bishan.

that is the moon and palm trees. 

we chatted till 5am and walk to mac and eat breakfast.

i tried mcgriddles. :D

smileys =)

lastly, st eat the burger and accidentally bite on her tongue stud, a few chips of her tooth fly out of her mouth and drop on the tray beside us. woot.

got up in the noon and packed my bag for chalet.

not really looking forward to it cos i already can predict what can i get from jason.

it was a lazy afternoon when i feel like lazing around and drink.

but 10 mins before leaving the house, i make use of the com and play 1 round of counter strike.

then i rush out and go town cos i thought i was late. 

i reached town just in time to collect my pay. 

after awhile nicole came and we shop around.

wanted to buy some clothes in topman but i didn't bring the voucher.. shucks!

then nana came and we headed to little india arcade to get inked.

just started.. 

subsequently, on the other side.... =P

the man and moon.

live with PRIDE

nicole and nana with my sunglasses. =D

after all the pain

let's have rochor dao huay....

 scrumptious!

cramp and sweat

the sissies.......

today i woke up and watch the L word then meet jason to go msia to buy games.

shop and eat quite a lot. but nvm next day training i can burn... haha

before leaving, i went to the shop and grab some gums. i wanna grab more but jason is so irritating keep ask me dun take dun take.. in the end i only got the miserable 2. :(

smuggling games and gums at the custom was thrilling. 

cos i was caught once.. 

but luckily i'm a good actor. HAHa!

oh ya! i also got apex 7 there! cool! finally can change the speed of my board... whoohoo!

anws, i'm chatting with benz and '****' just now. 

very very crappy.

both of them very emo.

ben was listening to ai ni yi wan nian and tuo diao tuo diao

and chatting with '******' halfway she went to grab her super broom to sweep floor,

 in the middle of the night, 

and she sweep damn long. sweep and chat... she really can multi task! hehe

she told me she likes to sweep the floor when she is stress or emo.

she stress until wanna come my room and pack... 

i got part time marian. COOLness~!

i was laughing like hell man.

i told them jokes and i'm glad they laugh like hell.

cheer up man! :D

baby, thanks for the call and ur really sweet today.

thanks for the 50%

and ur love.

can u stop making me crazy.

you know i want only you.

so stop pushing me away..

stop pushing me away...

shoot me right here,

make it quick.

[creep shyt]

You came into my life, I don't think that you meant to

You were standing in a doorway I was trying to walk through

Like an angel or the devil, I could never quite say

It doesn't matter anyway

Cuz I'm a fool for you

I'm a fool for you

Open my heart and let the wind blow through

I'm a fool for you

Well you can tell me anything and honey I'll believe

Cuz when you keep me hanging it only feeds the dream

I'm never going to reach you - you're a distant shore

But you've still got me coming back for more

Cuz I'm a fool for you

I'm a fool for you

Open my heart and let the wind blow through

I'm a fool for you

Let the wind blow through 

Now the snow is falling; all the roads are gone

The earth keeps moving but I am moving on

I had so much to tell you, but no words to say

It doesn't matter anyway

[all my first]

the 4 of us =)

having dinner at far east

i want MORE hokkien MEE!!...

nicole and her food

subway

i like nana's expression

LMAO!

cos i think shes the one flattened my hair and there she gave that innocent look :D

you all can see how wasted we can be-)

at chijmes, nana engrossed checking out girls in short skirts

i'm super satisfied today cos i settle 2 cravings in 1 day. hokkien mee and prawn mee.

still have 1 more to go.. which is quite tough cos i only get to eat that in the morning..

we went to far east eat hokkien mee then head to PLAY. 

saw many of ma frens there. :D

keep drinking... 

keep dancing..

halfway can feel hungry and go to eat prawn mee.

if i'm in the club i will dance wit u. next round i'll dance wit u. promise(:

went to chijmes and continue drinking after play

and that is gone case situation

but at least i've found a remedy to it=)

i had an awesome night with them. let's do it again.

when it rains, remember.

[wake me up]

wake up wake up!!

wake me up like a bad ass

cos i lurvve it! <3

and here are some photos with bad lightings.

xD

yawnss.....ZZzzz

tap dancing..lol

don't let me down

please turn around

cut my tongue

i love hardcore

ST and me.

 she look like a turtle with hoody :D 

i wan u to fight me 

come on let's fight

give me ur blue black

hahaha.

i woke up, happy to see you

can't bare to leave you

take a nap

meet up ST at woodlands to skate

when i reached, saw 4 more ppl

1 of them is broken hearted and they wanna drink

so i have to drink again..

have been drinking a lot for the whole month.

dont knw why...

but i don't mind

cos i can drink my sorrows away.... 

peace out xD

went to cut my hair today, it's not really the hair that i want but i guess i still can stand it hah:D

after that i still can't stand my fringe 

i did ask the hairdresser to cut but he refuse

then i go home cut myself.. bloody hell :(

hahaha!

then went to town with ST. 

she acc me go collect my phone. 

so nice of her.. then we shop ard and we saw issac, rachel and ben.

we decided to go coffee bean but it was packed so we go BK.

go inside BK., cannot resist.. then u neo..... haha! 

[herstory]

rita and me

nicole,rita and me.

[diet starts tmr!]

i knw i can't eat fast food but every restaurant was packed so i hafta eat tis. 

hahaha! ;P

drinks and fries

having a few more drinks :D

mixed this with coke and it tasted like bitter vanilla coke.

tt's me!

jason and i

jason is a very irritating guy and i can't stand him most of the time!

jason, ying rong, farah and ainah.

today is a very lazy day.

suppose to meet jason and farah at 3pm at J8 but i fell asleep.

jason blast my phone and i got so irritated so i get up and go msn! haha..

then i decided to meet them in town becos i need to send my phone for service.

after tt we took a bus to vivo to have dinner.

i feel so GUILTY after eating.

sweet baby,

thanks for everything!

xoxo

[mu,until the stars don't shine]

baby, do you feel the way i feel?

(:

my drug is too strong

barely can i last an hour without it

so addicted i am

and there's no rehab for it

urgh!! i can't quit!!

my mind thinks only of it

me

rita

                                                                            nicole

nana

meet up with nicole,sab and rita to ton at nicole house. we drank a lil vodka and we started playing 'dai dee' and i gets kinda boring. then we started playing 'wu gui wu gui tiao' haha and the forfeit is to draw on ur opponent face if they lose. we kept laughing at each other esp at nana cos she look very 'ti ko pek' LOL.

thanks for the night.love ya guys!(:

[goodnight, sunrise]

i went for 32km night cycling with sje ting and georgina. i meet geo and take train there and we laugh all the way there. haha.. she always make me laugh so hard.. can't stand. 

we started cycling at 12am and finished our 32km at changi village. we then headed to the market and eat supper but my grp didn't eat. we sat down and play the animal game..

after supper they wanted to extend the distance but u can choose to continue or give up.

due to my butt pain, i ever tot of giving up and sit the lorry back. so fun to sit lorry and blow wind. but in the end i decided to finish it if not i will feel incomplete. i'm thinking i've already made it so far and give up is so wasted. 

halfway thru i am very regret haha.. cos it's really tiring.. all i know i try not to think of the distance and i keep my mind busy thinking of someone. 

i kept keeping an eye on the first person infront and treat him as my pacer. and i cycle faster and faster cos i wan to finish it fast. the longer i take the longer my butt have to suffer!

i realised that i'm quite competitive . it's just that i'm lazy to make an afford most of the time or rather not keen in winning.

until i've reached the endin point which i don't even know i've reached.

and i came in 2nd!! i ask eh? why nobody ..i didn't knw we r the first few.

it's satisfaction !!

after awhile the sun start to rise and i crippled there to see the sunrise. 

it's my first time seeing sunrise. 

i took a few pictures so that i can share my first time wit u. (:

the forfeit of the game! whahaha...

i've finally got it. hahaha.. ROCKIN'

@changi village-this position is not easy.. and georgina says:oh! my camera needs 10 secs to take photos. 

funny faces

making fish ball

@east coast park-its about six- thirty when i just finish 42km cycling marathon.

can you watch the sunrise with me

nah. here's sth for you to see,so u wun complain bored. i'll get the rest of the cycling photos asap (:

imu hon.

Is your love in vain?

by Bob Dylan

Do you love me, or are you just extending goodwill?
Do you need me half as bad as you say, or are you just feeling guilt?
I've been burned before and I know the score
So you won't hear me complain.
Will I be able to count on you
Or is your love in vain?

Are you so fast that you cannot see that I must have solitude?
When I am in the darkness, why do you intrude?
Do you know my world, do you know my kind
Or must I explain?
Will you let me be myself
Or is your love in vain?

Well I've been to the mountain and I've been in the wind,
I've been in and out of happiness.
I have dined with kings, I've been offered wings
And I've never been too impressed.

All right, I'll take a chance, I will fall in love with you
If I'm a fool you can have the night, you can have the morning too.
Can you cook and sew, make flowers grow,
Do you understand my pain?
Are you willing to risk it all
Or is your love in vain?

[so happy la happy happy la]

i wake up with a bad hangover. 

head super painful and feel like puking still.

but i just wanna see you. see you so badly.

went to cine for dinner and movie. 

haha the funniest part is when she wanted to open th

e wrong door to get in the cinema. 

and try to entertain me buy saying h

ow she walk along orchard with a modern mop.

hahaha...

she has special abilities like finding super nice things at low cost,reading my mind, and make me go crazy.

if we didn't count the days we weren't in contact, we've known each other for almost a decade?

hah. my volleyball teamates, my pri 6 classmate. 

happy to see her again.

april fools over.

[no more ladies night]

i went to fetch yvonne after work at dempsey.

don't wanna go there early 

cos i wanna chat with her for awhile.

saw cheryl with von

saw the ben's and jerry's there makes me really tempt. 

but i'm on diet. wanted to go on diet 5 yrs ago until now 

it give up when i see juicy burgers, shiny sausages and golden chicken wings... slurp... woohoo. 

muaah. haharhar...

anws went to mos stamp first. then we headed to one night stand didn't get any drinks, just whole bunch of us standing there looking towards the counter. why huh? 

stare for 10 mins then headed to arena. i don't like tht place . not becos of the drinks i won't step inside there. 

while waiting for cheryl, von and i queue up and wanted to get in first but we were stop but the bouncers and he tell us to pay , freakin 20 bucks? then we wait for cheryl to try again but tis time we decided to pay. i ask von, do you need to drink badly? do u need to get high first? and we have a common ans. 

we went in sober, went out drunk.

then head to mos and dance awhile in the cage

went to toilet saw zzww and irenes all drunk we were like talkin crap to each other. yea tt's the last time i saw them cant find them cos its too packed. 

until irene called and ask me wad's zzww unit no. LMAO!!

From arena to mos all the way yvonne chia mei qi abandoned me with her frens  and left with her admirer the whole night. you chi ku .chicken neh neh .chee hong.

i noticed many ppl hav different interesting style when they're drunk.

yvonne chia mei qi - turned like emo shiat.

zzzwww- laugh like mad women and like to say the word biatch more frequently.

irene ang- run like a chicken and dance like super wild. whahaha.

irene neo- silence...................... never talk.

my neck hurts!

If i'm dead by now, rita cheng is the murderer.

thanks for your green tea and some portion of gas in ur lighter and ur electricity (: