[your red key chain is back]

i went to sch late.
eric left and i didn't manage to meet him on submission dateline. fuck
hopefully i can get to him on weds.
after sch, i call desmond up and ask him to help me get in the gym.
hoping to find pencil's key.
becos yesterday night she keep complaining how much she missed her keys.
so i went and search the whole locker i finally found it in the shape bag.
i'm so glad so glad for her.
this also teach me a lesson to be more organise and not to be so careless.

tomato ask me to abs. now super duper cramp.
i like............................ hahaha.. shiok.
wana do it again. i'm addicted to abs now.

[as happy as a clam at high tide]

it's been 1 mth i haven't go to the gym and work out.
eileen help me pay first so i can work out after 1 mth of slacking and eating.
when i meet her today, she told me that so got shocked becos my face very round.
yea, shes not the first person who told me that.
after i've slack from my weight training in the gym i grew fat alot.
i never work out for the whole mth!!
i told her my tummy was like 6 mth pregnant.. i swear i didn't lie to you!!
why u all don't believe me...
haha.
so yea when i reached the gym i straight away went for the treadmill.
i need to do alot of cardio noww...
i managed to run 2.4. in approx. 20 mins.
soooo sllowww...
thank god i don't have anymore napfa test, if not i'm really gonna fail like mad.
my fitness is getting from bad to worse.
either becos of smoke, or im getting old, or i'm obese.
sighhh... these few days i really feel like chopping off all my fats.
i'm gonna plan my workout schedule and diet.

After gym, me tomato and pencil went to subway at cine for early dinner.
we were all damn hungry. tomato was in the hibernating mode. pencil have no energy to talk. i feel like biting people. yea, this is how hungry we are. when we were there, THEY ordered 1 long foot and share 6 inch each. i orders 1 long foot too! haha... plus a regular meal! 1 long foot and a regular meal is just nice for me. ooops.? did i mentioned about working out on my diet earlier on? hah... my diet always start tomorrow. :D
i love subway melt-hearty-onions only-southwest, and a small meal.
after dinner, we walked aimlessly. den 3 of us feel like watching movie tgt so we turn back, and walk back to cine AGAIN.

they decided to watch brothers after buying the tickets we have 2hrs before the movie starts. so they sat down and eat dao huay. i didn't order cos there was no cold beancurd. sucks. they put there hot/cold. if they don't have cold please take it off.
pissed.we chit chat and lots of laughter den i saw tomato write my timetable down in her dairy. i'm so touched! hahaha... wanna hug her tight! before the movies, we went to cheers to get 3 red bean buns and 2 bottle of green tea. haha.
oh we just found out today that tomato knows how to read thai, jap and KOREAN! LOL

but we were damn gong today, pencil lost her keys and i left my ezlink in the locker.
all these happens at the same area. i knew sth is wrong and sth is gonna happen.the locker was so messy and inorganise.
and made me frown alot.

i really wan to clear my debt.
-nel
-justin
-tomato
-brother
-hc

i'm bad debt. ;/

love ya too tomato and pencil and thanks for the cute diary and card!
3 more weeks to review!




An elmo dairy from them.



stickers for the happy days



a heartwarmng card from shu hui and eileen. - dearest dino: pencil and tomato love you.

['A leopard doesn't change it's spot']

in the rush for sch, i was late again!
i forgot to bring my photography sketchbook for submission. shit!
i'm so worried all the way. until somebody called eric,he say can hand in on mon. phew..
today's 2d class i'm abit lost cos i have nth to do. i didn't bring those images.
after tt do mind mapping, taisi was giving us examples what can we put in our mind map.
she listed out - very lazy , - can't wake up, -always late for class. her eyes, keep looking at me, she aimed at me.
i hope i'm not like this anymore.
i wanna go sch everyday and finish my homework.
but i don't know why i just can't for my life, figured out how to make it work?!
why for other ppl it's so easy to make a change, easy for them to get 100% attendance.
fuggin whyyy?!!
not that i don't want to. i tried but it's not gd enough. it still looked the same.
thankfully, i have 2 very encouraging best fren. they gave me motivation and love always.
that's why i'm in sch a few days. if not it will be zero.
how hard i tried, i still cannot change.


i'm so lousy;i'm sucha failure.

[bit-by-bit]

i can't wake up for ccs.
i've planned to go but i failed again.
i went for drawing class 3 hrs late.
i took a cab down. i've wasted so much money on cab fare.
whenever i'm late, i always have the strong urge to speed with my bike and get there.
the urge is really strong and also make me curse myself.
i hate the feeling of being stucked.
this feeling suck to the core!
i keep blaming myself and at the same time i'm also not doing anything to it.
and then i blame myself again.
but i'm getting better bit-by-bit.

After class, i have to go for db training. but i don't have mood to go at all. so,me, rizal,spyder,liah and geric went to to cityhall to shop for sunglasses. we can't find anything tt attracted to us after we've combed the entire mall. so we decided to go for dinner. i really felt like going with them. i'm hungry and tired and don't feel like training. but in the end, i sadly say goodbye to them i left for my training.
when i reach there i started to row 10 sets of 1 min rows. and 10 mins of long distance. i didn't slack at all, i row all the way with perfect strokes and strength. i feel great after that becos i didn't waste a trip and at least i will feel more ready for the race. after training i went to eat at the coffeeshop with jason and gowri. i am damn damn hungry . i haven't eat anything the whole day. i think i'm god. i guess i have master hibernation already.

i reached home, have a nice bath and get ready for sch the next day.

KO.

[fat day]

i'm not going for IS. IS is so stupid. i took a nap and wake up rush to sch and print everything. it cost $19. i only got $13! i managed to borrow money from a fren.
so, hmmm. i left about 50 cents in my pocket and a -0.20 ezlink card. dunno how am i going to eat and how to go home.
luckily, geric lend me money eat chicken rice tgt. and liah lend me money to take train.
i acc liah and geric to far east to buy cap, they are too obsessed over my cap for the whole day.

today is the worst day of all!

-rush photography like mad.
-not enough sleep
-no make up becos i was late
-never work out for 1 mth
-sha say i gained weight; face very round
-no lino,no paper,no mood for printmaking
-no money
-no cigs
-stress,too much work
-feel bloated
-breast bigger
-tmr got training

i'll go back to gym after the race. and i swear i will work it all out!

when will u come by.

[coffee addict]

i wanted to go for 3d class but it was too late.
so i went for ppd class
once luis saw me, he said i go jogging never come to school.
the lesson is short and sweet.i'm so glad.
after sch,we walk to bugis starbucks and chill with riyan and liah.
we chill for quite sometime, then, there's a person just sitting a the next table.
liah and me keep on laughing. we really cannot stand it. shes so act cute and her reaction is so like a typicalactcutechinese reaction. luckily, riyan was blocking my view. if not later she throw her act cute hp at me.
until we really cannot stand it, we decided to go arcade for initial d.
then, pencil came. we go eat dao huay.
we got training in the evening. after eating we don't have mood for training.
thinking of the journey there so troublesome, long walking distance, go there for 1 hr only, plus jason pissed me off. super duper pissed with him. so there are no reasons i would go there for.
we then decided to go town for movie but in the end we starbucks cos got no movie to watch.
everything was going fine until we were on the way walking to starbucks.
we felt the awkwardness. she claimed that our 'frequency' was not there.
and actually we both know and felt the same a long time ago. it's just that both of us didn't mention it at all until today.
as we both have mentioned, things are easier to resolved. i see the problem there and i can't leave it just like before. so i sat there think really hard and told her alot of reasons why and some possible solutions it.
i told her :she got very high expectation.
she said : it's true.
i said : she's a saint.
we talked alot today. until our mouth very tired.
in the bus, we are still talking and stop for awhile to rest our mouth.
after that, we realised we loved each other alot but sometimes there is a barrier between us.
i hate this and i really wanna take this away.
- i may seems don't care, doesn't mean i don't care
-i may seems not interested, doesn't mean i'm not interested
our friendship is so weird. we are close and we are also not that close.

when i reached home, i rest awhile and started chionging photography.
i need to draw sketches for the grp portfolio.
my eyes were closing but i forced it to open, my vision is very blur when i'm sleepy. and liah send me those blur photos to draw. it's double blur.
after finishing the camera sketches and photo editing it's already 7am in the morning.
addicted to coffee already.

[chuck and larry]

i went for my drawing class 1 hr late.
not in the mood for class becos i dun have my sketch book and colored pencils.
plus i'm abit demoralised.

After sch, i meet eileen for dinner at ms
both of us thought of watching movie at the same time.
so we went to see what movie to watch.
but none had caught our interest. only resident evil that i have watched before.
which i don't mind watching it again. since she insisted don't want so we went on to watch chuck and larry.
we went cine to watch. saw alot of ppl.
at the beginning of the show,
eileen asked me:have i thought of why is this movie rated m18? it's just a comedy how come m18.
i replied:oh, because it has homosexual contents
then we started laughing. she say i keep bringing her to gay party, movie and stuff.
but this time it's really not i wanted. i don't have a choice. haha
if you don't have other show to watch, you can watch chuck and larry.
what i enjoy about the movie is how far 2 friends can help each other.
i'll give it 3 star movie.
after the movie, leen went to cheers to grab a bite then home sweet home.

[db and hari raya in 1 day]

i woke up at 2pm today.
prepared my stuff for training.
karen and ace picked me up at my place then picked pencil up at kallang mrt station
today's training was tough!
i haven't eat anything the whole day.
i stop many times. it's the first time i stop rowing.
i felt so disappointed that i don't have enough energy to row today.

after db, we went to din house for hari raya.
we sit behide the lorry. it was my first time and i was so excited. haha it was a fun experience. haha
once i reached his house, i started eating straight away. i eat until i'm really full den i stop and talk to my friends. the cookies and food were nice!!what i like about hari raya is the food. there is alot of food food food. haha!

we chatted until it's quite late, we then make a move.
as we were walking down the steps.
jason was talking to us. and i wasn't listening at all.
i was just focusing on his legs.
it was so amazing when he walk down the steps.
it's really really really super duper funny!!!!!
the way he walk down the steps.
he is unbalanced, and his legs are abit twisted and looked like tripping at the beginning.
then his twist got more intense. twisted to the left and right. and look like falling down.
this is the first time i saw ppl walk like that. i think it's so amazing. and i swear no one could imitate his ' twisteddownthe stepsallthewaylegs' whahaha! i think you will made me laugh for the whole week! haha!
after that nickie gave us a ride home. thank god got nickie and cab if not i will dunno how to survivie home. i'm so shagged.
we alight at bouna vista and took train home.
we waited for the train for very long.
i ask pencil which side. and she told me confidently that it was this side.
so i think. okay. i felt sth was nt rite but i din bother cos she was V. confident when she told me.
indeed i was right. we took the wrong side!!
and she still don't know until i told her. wah piang..
when we were in the train, she told me i made her very happy today.
and i've done many things that made her feel touched.
omg. i never had tis feeling b4.
i'm glad that i'm showing some signs of improvement. haha!
damn happy la. you made me very happy too. =)
we miss tomato. tomato miss us too right?
yes la.
owww.
i hate sundays.
because i have monday blues :( damn it! damn damn damn!

[stay home saturday]

i really hate to stay at home on saturday.
i can't do anything today becoz i was damn damn broke.
i wanna go for a movie, but i can't.
wana go gym, but haven't pay this mth's bill,can't go starbucks and chill.
but no money can go jogging right? west coast park is just beside me.
can go swimming, go to the library or walk the dog.
i'm LAZY to do all these!

supposed to meet jason in town for window shopping but i woke up late at 4pm.
he meet me at 2. so i called him up and wanted to go meet him.
but he say ying rong need to go home by 8.
after that, i decided to stay at home.
chat with eileen and discussed about our learning and activities plans.

thankfully, i managed to get out of my house at 12 am.
i meet ronnie for supper. he picked my up then we go wcp mac and shared a nugget meal=) haha
he slimmed down so much!!! i am so jealous. and made me had alot of motivation to work out on my diet plans.
and it lasted for 1 day. hahaha
then i'll started eating like a dinosaur!rahhhhh!
and we chit chat and i kept laughing.
everything was so funny. haha
as i was talking i realised there's 3 person kept looking at me.
i don't like ppl always look at me as i was quite sensitive recently.
we chit chat for quite sometime and i feel like smoking.
i tell ronnie let's go see the beach. hah!
so finally i got out and pufff.
after strolling, i felt tired. i'm old.
so he walk me back to my blk den he went back home.
hah! at least not so bad. i didn't stay at home the whole entire day on saturday. yay!
now, can sleep peacefully :D

[car washing day ia a tiring day]

this morning i woke up, as usual i was too late for sch so i couldn't make it again.
i already purpose put my alarm clock far far away so i need to crawl up and walk a distance to off it.
but it didn't work!
i can walk to and snooze it for 10 times and i didn't know.

so i meet pencil and william to wash car. before that we went to bishan to makan becoz we were hungry.
i wanted to try the famous chicken rice but the queue is damn long and my dino stomach can't wait anymore.
so i ordered vegeterian rice. quite nice but the portion is too little.
after we had our lunch,we proceed to punggol marina to do car washing
when we arrive, we took the bucket out and walk towards the toilet.
i was filling the bucket with water and she was inside the cubicle as we talk for quite sometime.
after she came out of the cubicle, we continue talking in the toilet
haha we were in the toilet chit chatting, we already felt something is strange but we still haven't knw
until she saw the toilet sign,
it's Gents! both of us were so panicked
so she ran out of the toilet, i dashed out too with a bucket of water as i run it spill all over my pants
after that we both squat down infront there and keep laughing
laughed really Looouud!
when we've recovered, we started to wash the car and did a little polishing till we rub until very very exhausted.
after while we finally gave up.
hate polishing to the max!

after that i went an interview. teaching young kids to draw.
i really don't know whether should i get this job or not.
cos i feel that i don't do well with kids.
i like to torture them
but some nice ones i'll treat them better which is quite rare.

den pencil accompany me to Jurong to dye hair.
the stylist told my my hair is super black
it's the black tone 2.
it's very black and thick.
my hair blached 3 times.
after 3 hrs plus my hair is finally done.
i kinda like the color. but not totally becoz it does not come out the color i wan EXACTLY.
but it's still acceptable =)





oh! i lost a pack of cigs. a new pack~......new pack!!
god damn it. im so broke now and tis happens to me?!
i am dying~

i'm tired and happy cos i made pencil happy:)


we just went in






grand theft auto - Punggol Marina












car washing





car washing with smile =)






my maid, Mariam RH.





i love playing at the playground
i love going down the slides
29, 30!
here i come
Rdy or not?
up down up
high low high
there here there





Ohh ohh
Don't walk away
Don't walk away girl, I'll be right there for you



what is she doing?




Pencil and me
focus on her brows.. :D






high enough to touch the sun





nothing to hide

[BROUGHT HER FOR GROOMING]

I tried my best to go for photography class today i felt so stuck onto my bed but i dragged myself to school because i know my attendance is really bad. when i ask eric to mark my attendace, he refused!!! i'm hopping mad and violent. but i refrain myself. i'm a saint. hah!

i meet eileen after school for a haircut. we were discussing how should we cut it then i told her confidently i'm going to cut it short. like come on it's nothing.... i'll just cut it away. But when i reach the salon, i have became very soundless and expressionless. oh of cos i ask the stylist to do on tomato first. don't know why when i was sitted on the saloon chair i became a coward already. Very quickly it's my turn because tomato's hair is like a few strands only make me have so little time to prepare and think! she told me her hair look like dog. then i told her: ya, that's why i bring you here for grooming not cutting. :P

After that we when to JEC to eat herbal chicken at 7pm which is my first meal of the day.
i have totally opposite sleeping time and weird meal timing.
i went home, do the usual stuffs and chat with pencil till 4am.
when i told her about what i'd for my usual supper, she exclaimed that i'm a dino!

my supper:
1 bar of choco
2 cups of milo
2 pieces of butter and honey bread
3 packets of instand noodles
9 pieces of ham
5 sticks of ciggies


There is a person keep smiling at me;and i thought for awhile or quite long, do i know her or have i seen her b4 then finally i got my conclusion: oh maybe smiling is a courtesy. oh before i need to react it's way too late.

p.s: shu hui please don't kill me......

[JET LAG FUCK ME UP]

i felt like shit .
why i skip school again.
my body clock is horribly screwed.
my mom was watching a korean drama the WHOLE entire day. and it's was her second time watching it.
i keep hearing the same tune on the show keeps playing on and on. korean drama is just so annoying.
so not in a gd mood today
i feel like kicking and punching!

[RUBBER BALL]

Skipped lecture -> the usual
late for class for an hour -> it's common for me
i'm glad i'd made it for lesson today;hope it's the same for tmr.
must ENDURE!!!
i didn't work out for almost 3 weeks!
i felt like a rubber ball...
and
i hope i can get a haircut SOON


i'm good and talented in giving myself excuses.

[HOLLY MOLLY!]

Grab a QUICK bite at expo, rushed in just in time before the gate closes.
i didn't really pay attention. i was looking around and laughing at nerds.
i say the ushers looked like bloody cleaners! LMFAO!
i told them i once saw some cleaners with the same color uniform in my school. Tomato says: this caters for nerdys.
shu hui says: 4 of us are just like MSU.
i say: that girl's hair is damn round and stiff.
shrugs* i don't know why is there such a big difference?
can anyone tell me?
anyway, i go there to worship. i don't really care about these matters.
isn't it better for me? because there isn't any distraction for me? so that i could focus on him? hahaha!!
After service, our initial plan was to go Gym.
But, none of us have the mood to work out at all.
we got 'towning' mood yea.
we still went to Bugis, thanks to tomato, she will never give up
then we headed to town, shop and walking aimlessly.
pencil bought a top and a skirt, she came out of the fitting room and let me see.
she was so pretty with that set, like an ANGEL. haha! till 1 girl can't resist and keep looking at her.
what was it with her? how dare she look at my gf for so long? hah!
we had subway and hang around at far east.
i bought MORE food , because the subway ain't full at all. not even filled half of my stomach.
we took 143 together yeea! very happy! love you tomato..
we discuss what we gonna have for CHristmas... this is the happiest topic of the day! hahaha!

i love tomato and pencil forever=)
xoxo

[AGAIN]

i stayed at home the whole day today
BORED la
worse thing- don't want to do homework still
havent learn my lesson?!
i need someone to beat me so i will wake up
i have been sleeping for toooooooo looonnnggggg..... really seriouslly long.
tmr will be meeting tomato and pencil
hope we will have a gd time.
Selemat hari raya ppl.. :)

[RE]

Well, todays my first day of school since the 1 week break. Meet Sam and Lionel after school and we went to starbucks to chill out. We were so funny when talking about cell grp. yea, that's what we do.. chat. chill.. laugh.bullshit. we chill until stoned, so we decided to head back to school to sleep. Lionel and i were creating the 'human reaction' as we were waiting for joyce and juice. laughing my ass out. i love the 'amazing dust' the most.LOL... gawd... hahaa. I played until i feel abit sleep so i lay down with sam sleepiong on the pokey grass patch. After while, joyce and juice came down there was no lesson. We then walk to cathay to watch resident evil. DAmn nice...! only that i'm very scared. Lionel and i keep shutting out ears and we keep predicting..'oh no its coming.. coming..!' 'there surely something inside' 'there is sth for sure'... and juice scream while watching RE. haha.. today is the first time i sleep so early at night.